Missing My Family

thanks to wallcoo.net for this wonderful image

Months had already passed... yet until now, I have not communicated with my family. And now I am missing them so much, that a day won't surely end without me thinking of them especially the memories we've shared together. I miss mommy. I miss daddy. I miss ate. I miss Aldrin. And I miss Balong. I could have communicated with them in any way, but I opted not to... and this is because of an 'unwanted incident' that had happened to me months ago that I don't want them to know or rather I don't want them to be involved.

It's almost July and that 'unwanted incident' happened December of last year, but it seems that it happened just yesterday... and it's killing me. Yes, I know and I've come to learn the fact that my family are the only people in this world who I can always trust, no matter what... but still, at this stage, I have decided not to tell them anything... of what had happened and of what I am currently facing. And in order for me to do this, for me to avoid getting them involve, it is really a must not to communicate with them right now. Maybe after everything's settled but not right now.

Honestly, I feel bad and so down these past few days, and I am certain that only the sound of home would make me feel better. I had always thought that my friends and colleagues would eventually replace the family I had missed way back home... but I was wrong. Nobody can ever replace or surely beat your family and that nothing is like home.

As I spent each day at work and always outdoor, I began to feel sorry for myself, watching the people and the happy neighborhood families around me... And I felt that my life was controlled by the needs of others and that I was losing the right to any personal happiness...

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Save the Best for Last

Special thanks to SINJIN for this wonderful portrait...

Friendship is one of the hardest thing to keep because somewhere in the middle new friends may come... but despite of this fact, I hope you will still keep me in your heart even if someone better comes.

Sometimes the snow comes down in June
Sometimes the sun goes round the moon
I see the passion in your eyes
Sometimes its all a big surprise
cause there was a time when all I did was wish
You'd tell me this was love
Its not the way I hoped or how I planned
But somehow its enough

To YOU - you know who you are,

I never say it often, but yes, I am grateful for everything especially for the time you spend and continue to share with me... It may not really be that often that we go along together, but for me it's already enough.

You told me before that you are afraid that you may hurt me... indirectly. And that you don't want me to be hurt because I don't deserve to be. These words are the very reason why I continue to be positive and continue to hope that there would still be a better tomorrow in this ironic world we are into... that if we will just keep our faith, somewhere down the road things will all be alright. Just like the saying that we always hear, "GOD make all things beautiful in His time."

... the thought alone that somehow you cared, is already enough for me to hang on and patiently wait. This waiting may surely be for a lifetime, but for as long as I keep this faith, even eternity would surely be a bliss.

For sure you will hurt me and in fact you already did, but that's no big deal to me anymore. But it's not because I am used to it, but instead, it is because I have realized that life as a whole is really not all about happiness... it's not even all about the right things. So please don't worry if you hurt me, I may not really be that ready for it but for sure I would be able to surpass the feeling. Yes, I am still scared but I am trying not to be.

Lately, I have just learned that friendship is the best relationship we could really have right now... We may go in separate ways, live in different ways, believe in different aspects, but for as long as we believe we are friends, we will forever be...

... Let's just save the best for last...

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BLOGGERS UNITE for a Free Iran

Objective:
••• Bloggers Unite for a FREE IRAN on Mon. June 29th.

Bloggers Unite to support Human Rights in Iran on Monday June 29th.

Violence, arrests, crackdowns and media blackouts continue to increase in Iran in the aftermath of the recent presidential elections. en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2009_Iranian_election_protests.

On Monday June 29th, we ask Bloggers from around the globe to Unite for a Free Iran. Please JOIN this event and use your blog to educate your readers and spread the word about how we can help support a Free Iran.

This event makes us remember other things:
Where are our rights?
Will humanity always accept these charges policies?

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