Monday, October 31, 2011

Uncertainty That Is

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It's neither hope nor haven
When you are on the track by yourself
When your dreams run away, and sanity's soon gone,
When it is chilling deep inside;

While trying your luck on your way
Expect to take a walk or a meal,
Mishaps on a track always happen
And offers no such agreement;

You alone, stripped of thy strength,
Lost, but still so cold to care,
Everything I owned was packed in the sleigh,
Yet uncertainty still hangs in the air.


Saturday, October 29, 2011

Still Waiting for the Rain

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I was looking at the sky yesterday and a smile was then painted on my face. It was way clearer than the past few days but maybe it’s because I never paid attention that much before. Yet, despite of its alluring charm, I still prepare it rains...

A tranquil mind is what I needed most at this point in time, and rain helps me have it. While watching it pours each place it reaches, I feel like an airy blessed body that’s befitting the acclamation as I continue to live. A divine feeling I’ve been longing for.

Oh rain! Deluge me with all the wonders you bring. Come here and hug me again. Shower my spirit and water my soul. Wash this growing emptiness and despondency in me.

Come on rain, I am waiting.


Friday, October 28, 2011

The Distorted I Become

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It does not help that either I talk more or I refuse to. I am just a dot in the cosmos anyway, and my existence is still yet to be determined...

The thing is, the path’s getting narrower and narrower now. As much as I wanted to help myself out, I am always being push into a place where options become limited and never meant any advantage. I know this isn’t right but the puzzle remains unresolved as far as I can tell. It’s this thing which leads me to think I must have ruined my chances and I must have done something wrong.

The idea that “I can always change the situation” has already mutated to “If something goes wrong, it will always be my fault.” This tends to alarm and disappoint me lately. It’s like, I need to stay out of my mind and do nothing just to maintain the equilibrium or I try to move and ruin everything again.

Maybe if I can only make things right once again... yet until then, I know I'm in big trouble.


Thursday, October 27, 2011

Are You Socially Anxious?

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Are you socially aware and concerned? Did you check how socially relevant you really are? Have you been tested lately about your social relationships? What about a test for social anxiety disorder?

Social anxiety disorder or what is better known as social phobia is a problem or a defect in a particular individual which is triggered by significant anxiety for fear of being rejected, humiliated, shamed, or ignored by people in all social aspects. If it continues, it will end at the root of depression and even a serious emotional problem.

No one is ever born perfect; nobody has everything. This alone gives us a reason why we have a tendency to be self-conscious. And it's human's nature to get nervous, shy, and even to doubt his abilities. We often think of the social result first of what we will do before we do it. Will what we do be accepted by others? Often, we asked ourselves the question, because we are afraid that the world may not really like it at all. Yes, this is indeed natural, but most of the time it tends to be too serious wherein you become too conscious of almost everything especially your relationship to others, thinking that you're rather be rejected than approved.

Social phobia is considered today as one of the world's largest psychological problem. As a matter of fact, it ranked third among all the psychological problems in the world. And because of this, it is but important to not ignore the issue of self-assertion - we should be helping ourselves out from this problem and ensure that we are not socially distress at all.

Good thing that there is already a test today to gauge how socially anxious one person is. A test where in which one may understand his own-self in terms of being socially conscious or anxious. Social phobia test assesses our social skills, as well as psychological and emotional aspects to determine if one has a social anxiety disorder.