Sunday, June 28, 2009
Missing My Family
Months had already passed... yet until now, I have not communicated with my family. And now I am missing them so much, that a day won't surely end without me thinking of them especially the memories we've shared together. I miss mommy. I miss daddy. I miss ate. I miss Aldrin. And I miss Balong. I could have communicated with them in any way, but I opted not to... and this is because of an 'unwanted incident' that had happened to me months ago that I don't want them to know or rather I don't want them to be involved.
It's almost July and that 'unwanted incident' happened December of last year, but it seems that it happened just yesterday... and it's killing me. Yes, I know and I've come to learn the fact that my family are the only people in this world who I can always trust, no matter what... but still, at this stage, I have decided not to tell them anything... of what had happened and of what I am currently facing. And in order for me to do this, for me to avoid getting them involve, it is really a must not to communicate with them right now. Maybe after everything's settled but not right now.
Honestly, I feel bad and so down these past few days, and I am certain that only the sound of home would make me feel better. I had always thought that my friends and colleagues would eventually replace the family I had missed way back home... but I was wrong. Nobody can ever replace or surely beat your family and that nothing is like home.
As I spent each day at work and always outdoor, I began to feel sorry for myself, watching the people and the happy neighborhood families around me... And I felt that my life was controlled by the needs of others and that I was losing the right to any personal happiness...