Sunday, June 28, 2009

Missing My Family

10 comments

Months had already passed... yet until now, I have not communicated with my family. And now I am missing them so much, that a day won't surely end without me thinking of them especially the memories we've shared together. I miss mommy. I miss daddy. I miss ate. I miss Aldrin. And I miss Balong. I could have communicated with them in any way, but I opted not to... and this is because of an 'unwanted incident' that had happened to me months ago that I don't want them to know or rather I don't want them to be involved.

It's almost July and that 'unwanted incident' happened December of last year, but it seems that it happened just yesterday... and it's killing me. Yes, I know and I've come to learn the fact that my family are the only people in this world who I can always trust, no matter what... but still, at this stage, I have decided not to tell them anything... of what had happened and of what I am currently facing. And in order for me to do this, for me to avoid getting them involve, it is really a must not to communicate with them right now. Maybe after everything's settled but not right now.

Honestly, I feel bad and so down these past few days, and I am certain that only the sound of home would make me feel better. I had always thought that my friends and colleagues would eventually replace the family I had missed way back home... but I was wrong. Nobody can ever replace or surely beat your family and that nothing is like home.

As I spent each day at work and always outdoor, I began to feel sorry for myself, watching the people and the happy neighborhood families around me... And I felt that my life was controlled by the needs of others and that I was losing the right to any personal happiness...

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10 COMMENTS:

madz said...

Oh =(
It is true, family is the best. No matter what happen, you'll see that it is always the home where your feet leads you.

atenean101 said...

yes madz,
even how hard a certain person is, there will come a time that he/she will realize or learn the importance of their own family... and it`s somehow sad to know that one realizes such fact ironically...

deejames said...

hi.. kumusta? kilala mo ba ako?

K.Frangeskos said...

Hi,
Life is all about growing and lessons...whatever is on your mind and in your heart...turn to Jesus for help. HE loves you and will help you in everything. HE is always beside you. Visit my site if you wish for some added inspiration and joy. God is great!!!
God Bless You
K. Frangeskos
JESUS KNOWS YOU BEST

atenean101 said...

hi deejames!

but of course i still do. ikaw pa, eh part ka kaya ng blog na ito. still remember who did my banner? hehe. thank you so much, it really turned out great. dami ngang nagcocomment na gusto nila daw ang banner eh. hehe. thanks again.

been away for long? what happened?

atenean101 said...

thanks for the very inspiring thoughts...

i know and i always believe that SOMEONE up there is always there guiding me and helping me out... always easing the pains. but sometimes, there just comes a point where we really feel so down and we feel real bad no matter how hard we tried not to be... especially when you`re alone and you feel like no one`s there for you.

i always have my faith in HIM. that is for sure. i know that HE`s just there ready to comfort me the time when I can`t take things anymore... i`ve through a lot already, and surely i won`t have had made it this far if HE`s not with me. and for that i am so grateful.

BIO said...

Why? What happened?

Nhil / Random Surprises said...

There's no place like home ika nga. I hope that in due time you get in touch with your family again and things will be better with you and them.

Good thing that you have an avenue to share your thoughts kasi di ba mas mabuti kapag nailalabas mo yung feelings mo. Just remember that you have your online friends who are willing to virtually listen and keep you company.

Btw, I mentioned you in my post as one of my chosen bloggers to check out for. :) Ingat palagi and have a great day!

atenean101 said...

it`s indeed a long story... and at this stage, i`ve shared it to only few people who`s somehow close to me... and right now, i`m afraid i won`t really be able to tell you the details. i just hope you understand...

atenean101 said...

yea... sure thing sis. there`s no place like home talaga...

i`ll try to contact them as soon as i`ve settled already the things that i need to settle here. and of course i`ll ask for an apology...

and hey, thank you so much for the post. honestly, visiting my site and leaving a comment here is already enough. pero grabe, you`ve featured me pa on one of your posts. i am so grateful and honored. thank you so much. i hope you`ll continue to be my online buddy and probably my offline buddy too if God permit us to meet. haha. cheers sis!